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Post by Kyrie "Heaven" Fallen on Feb 21, 2011 16:07:31 GMT -5
K Y R I E_x_F A L L E N
"When The Last Feather Falls... That'll Be The End Of Me.”
Age ;; 16
Sign ;; Gemini
Birthplace ;; Banora
Occupation ;; None
[/font] Journal Entry I
I never really understood why I would need a journal... but, I guess there can be no harm in having, it might help...
My name is Kyrie Fallen, why I'm writing that in a journal I don't know, but I guess there's no harm in writing my thoughts, they do bother me half the time, who knows, someone might find this one day.
I was born in Banora and raised by my father, though sadly my mother died giving birth to me, it's sad, really... I never even got to meet her, but my father tells me that she held me before she died, so that made me happy to know. I've never seen her face, but father tells me that she was a beautiful woman, very intelligent and kind, I wouldn't think of her any other way...
My father named me after my mother, her name was Kyrie, too... father says I look a little bit like her, but I wouldn't know, I think I'm more like him. His name is Seraph, he's Banora's landlord's advisor, a pretty important job, so he's always busy.
Before that, he told me he use to be a warrior, but gave up his position when he met mother, they met and instantly fell in love with each other... it sounds so sweet... but I hope I haven't caused him any problems 'cause he has to look after me now, I don't want to be a burden to him. I try to keep the house tidy and I cook for us, too... he deserves it after a hard day...
I sometimes wonder what it'd be like if mother was still here with us... maybe we'd be happier... I notice father crying at night sometimes... but, I know it's not my fault that mother died, he knows this too... but... it's just sad...
Humm...
I'm going to end this entry... I'm getting tired...
Kyrie |
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Post by Kyrie "Heaven" Fallen on Feb 21, 2011 20:04:47 GMT -5
K Y R I E_x_F A L L E N
"When The Last Feather Falls... That'll Be The End Of Me.”
Age ;; 16
Sign ;; Gemini
Birthplace ;; Banora
Occupation ;; None
[/font] Journal Entry II Well... this isn't good... father just lost both his jobs, that landlord can be such a jerk sometimes...
I had a feeling something was up, he has been acting strange lately... but I don't think it's just because he's lost his jobs... something doesn't feel right...
I wonder what he could be up to...Kyrie[/blockquote][/color] |
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Post by Kyrie "Heaven" Fallen on Feb 21, 2011 23:12:33 GMT -5
K Y R I E_x_F A L L E N
"When The Last Feather Falls... That'll Be The End Of Me.”
Age ;; 16
Sign ;; Gemini
Birthplace ;; Banora
Occupation ;; None
[/font] Journal Entry III ...
...I can't believe this... my father... he's resorted to stealing, I knew something was going on, but... but... I didn't expect this... it can't be...I don't think he knows that I've found out yet...
I need time to think...
I have to confront him about this...Kyrie[/blockquote][/color] |
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Post by Kyrie "Heaven" Fallen on Feb 21, 2011 23:17:27 GMT -5
K Y R I E_x_F A L L E N
"When The Last Feather Falls... That'll Be The End Of Me.”
Age ;; 16
Sign ;; Gemini
Birthplace ;; Banora
Occupation ;; None
[/font] Journal Entry IV I finally spoke to father about it, sadly he seemed so ashamed... but after explaining to me why he was doing it, I soon understood... he wanted to provide for me, they hadn't sent his last payment to him and he thought we'd be able to live off that for a while until he found a new job. The landlord fired him for father's poor advice, which I find hard to believe... that stupid landlord probably didn't listen to my father... thus firing him for his own mistake...
Ugh, whatever, he doesn't deserve my father...
I still don't know what to do about this, but I can't blame my father for doing what he thought was right... it's not like he's hurting anyone or stealing from those less fortunate than us... he's doing what any other good father would do...
I'll love my father no matter what...Kyrie[/blockquote][/color] |
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Post by Kyrie "Heaven" Fallen on Feb 21, 2011 23:22:53 GMT -5
K Y R I E_x_F A L L E N
"When The Last Feather Falls... That'll Be The End Of Me.”
Age ;; 16
Sign ;; Gemini
Birthplace ;; Banora
Occupation ;; None
[/font] Journal Entry V I haven't been able to sleep for a while now... I still keep thinking about my father, I know he's doing good by trying to look after his child... but... last night... he asked me to help him...
I just don't know what to do...
I've also been feeling pretty weird lately... I've spoke to father about it and he says that I'm becoming a woman... I'm not really sure if he's right though, I spoke to some of the women in the village and they said it's nothing like that they go through... I'm a little worried...
I feel like such a typical teenager... writing about such things...
I don't know why... but I feel different from other people...
..... Is there something wrong with me?Kyrie[/blockquote][/color] |
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Post by Kyrie "Heaven" Fallen on Feb 21, 2011 23:26:13 GMT -5
K Y R I E_x_F A L L E N
"When The Last Feather Falls... That'll Be The End Of Me.”
Age ;; 16
Sign ;; Gemini
Birthplace ;; Banora
Occupation ;; None
[/font] Journal Entry VI ...After much thinking about it, I've finally agreed to help my father... I don't care if people think what I'm doing is wrong... I need to survive...
Father begins training me tomorrow...
I'm scared...Kyrie[/blockquote][/color] |
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Post by Kyrie "Heaven" Fallen on Feb 21, 2011 23:30:31 GMT -5
K Y R I E_x_F A L L E N
"When The Last Feather Falls... That'll Be The End Of Me.”
Age ;; 16
Sign ;; Gemini
Birthplace ;; Banora
Occupation ;; None
[/font] Journal Entry VII It seems things are going well, I stole some bread from a cart today... I'm not bragging about, I feel awful... but at least I'm still alive...
Every day I can see the shame in father's eyes... but I know his intentions... he's not a bad man... he's a good father... he really is, and I'll always love him...
I don't think anyone knows about what my father and I do... I'm sure they'd hate us if they found out...
Still... they wouldn't let their children starve no matter how better they think they are than us...Kyrie[/blockquote][/color] |
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Post by Kyrie "Heaven" Fallen on Feb 21, 2011 23:34:03 GMT -5
K Y R I E_x_F A L L E N
"When The Last Feather Falls... That'll Be The End Of Me.”
Age ;; 16
Sign ;; Gemini
Birthplace ;; Banora
Occupation ;; None
[/font] Journal Entry VIII Thinking back to what father said... I'm really not sure that I'm becoming a woman, my body has already developed... when I was brushing my hair today I noticed a silver hair, at first I thought I was going grey... but then I realised I'm too young... I am under a little stress, but still... this is like genuine silver...
I realise my father has silver hair...
Could this just be heritage coming through...?Kyrie[/blockquote][/color] |
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Post by Kyrie "Heaven" Fallen on Feb 21, 2011 23:39:18 GMT -5
K Y R I E_x_F A L L E N
"When The Last Feather Falls... That'll Be The End Of Me.”
Age ;; 16
Sign ;; Gemini
Birthplace ;; Banora
Occupation ;; None
[/font] Journal Entry IX Huh? More silver hairs...?
They're beginning to look like streaks...
It actually looks kinda pretty, but I just don't understand what's going on... this is really starting to worry me...
I keep asking father what could be wrong with me, even he's starting to get a little worried, but he reassures me that it's just heritage... I really hope he's right...
Speaking of which... father seems to be going out a lot more than usual, I rarely see him, I don't know what he's up to now...
I wish he'd tell me...Kyrie[/blockquote][/color] |
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Post by Kyrie "Heaven" Fallen on Feb 21, 2011 23:41:37 GMT -5
K Y R I E_x_F A L L E N
"When The Last Feather Falls... That'll Be The End Of Me.”
Age ;; 16
Sign ;; Gemini
Birthplace ;; Banora
Occupation ;; None
[/font] Journal Entry X ...
Father hasn't come home from last night...
I'm getting worried now...
Did something happen?
No... maybe he's just busy... that has to be it...Kyrie[/blockquote][/color] |
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Post by Kyrie "Heaven" Fallen on Feb 21, 2011 23:48:05 GMT -5
K Y R I E_x_F A L L E N
"When The Last Feather Falls... That'll Be The End Of Me.”
Age ;; 16
Sign ;; Gemini
Birthplace ;; Banora
Occupation ;; None
[/font] Journal Entry XI .....
He's still not home...
A search party has gone out to look for him... I'm praying that he's alright... I feel so lonely without him...
Daddy... where are you...?Kyrie[/blockquote][/color] |
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Post by Kyrie "Heaven" Fallen on Mar 12, 2011 14:13:02 GMT -5
K Y R I E_x_F A L L E N
"When The Last Feather Falls... That'll Be The End Of Me.”
Age ;; 21
Sign ;; Gemini
Birthplace ;; Banora
Occupation ;; None
[/font] Journal Entry XII .....
Five years... I can't believe how long it's been...
I know I never really used this before, I didn't seem to write much about my life anyway... I guess it doesn't matter.
Well, I'm all grown up now, I not long reached twenty-one a few weeks ago...
There's so much I want to write about the past five years... but... I just don't know... why am I even writing in this? The past should be left behind... right?
Then again, how can I? Too much has happened, I can't talk about it with anyone, they wouldn't understand, no one does eversince my father...
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My father...
I miss him, so very much...
That day he went missing, in the end he was found, but... sadly, he wasn't alive when they did... I don't even know what happened to him, they said monsters had gotten to him, but... it just didn't feel right...
I didn't have time to look at him or even say goodbye... he had faded away before then... I was alone...
I could tell that everyone felt sorry for me, I had lost both my parents, but I didn't want their sympathy... they would never understand and sympathy just doesn't help, I lack the ability to feel sympathy for anyone... I just can't see the point in it... sympathy won't bring my parents back... it just creates more sadness...
No, I'm just going to stop writing for now...Kyrie[/blockquote][/color] |
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